I used to think
… that you were the best person to have by my side.
… that no one could make me laugh like you could.
… that no one else would be so unconditionally there for me like you.
… that your arms were the only ones I would ever need.
… that your scent would be my only source of comfort.
… that I didn’t deserve your love.
I now think
… that I was wrong.
… that you gave up when things got hard.
… that I had been lying to myself.
… that I stayed that long because I didn’t want to fail at something, again.
… I should have listened to everyone from the very beginning.
… enough is enough.
… it is time to finally be happy, without you.
I now know
… that you were not the best person to have by my side.
… that many people make me laugh like you did.
… that almost everyone I now surround myself with, are unconditionally there for me.
… that I never needed your arms.
… that your scent is now unidentifiable, it’s not even a memory.
… that I will never need someone else to be happy.
… that I have finally learned from my past mistakes.
… that I am not who I used to be.
… why I went through everything I have.
I went through it all to find myself, to find the person who does deserve my love and who I deserve to love right back.
I now know that I do not hold grudges; I won’t waste my energy on you. Instead, I will thank you. Thank you for making me think and for making me wake up.